101 in 1001

Tonight, it is with intentional embarrassment that I link you to the webpage I just made as part of and to keep track of my newest endeavor, the "101 things in 1001 days" challenge.

The more time i spend on this, the more it feels like exactly what's been missing the last year.

It's self-explanatorily a short term bucket list. What's brilliant about it is that 3ish years seems to be the sweet spot of lofty and inspiring but SMART goal setting. Bucket lists are fun for the imagination but has no real planable deadlines to work around. New years resolutions fall flat because doing anything for a year that you aren't doing makes it hard to stay motivated. 3 years works well because you have multiple times to try seasonally dependent goals. Being 30 is kind of a perfect time to do this as well because I expect to be in a very different place 3 years from now and it's given me time to reflect on what I really want to do before i move into a more settled, domestic role.

The number seems to work well too, as it's big enough to throw "easy wins" on there, but small enough that you don't feel pressured to put "everysinglethingyoucouldeverwanttodo"

I tried to keep my travel goals off as much as possible because my travel bucket list is kind of insane right now and really, this wasn't the point.

It's been cathartic just to make the list. Lately I've been feeling somewhat directionless and lost. Go to work, come home, eat, take the dog out, go to band, dress up, go out, drink, fuck, sleep, read a book, watch Game of Thrones. Everything wonderful and fufilling but somewhat repetetive. And I feel like I already up and do whatever I set my mind to. I just hadn't felt inspired lately.

So i made the list. and considering how amazing i've felt without even accomplishing anything tells me 2 things about what makes me happy:
1- I need to have a plan. Even if the plan is just to make a plan. I need a plan. Feeling like i'm on track, even if I'm not there yet, is better than being content when i'm where i think i should be.
2- I need to be always working toward something. Always challenged. Always impressing myself with my accomplishments. Always feeling like i'm making "progress." Even if I give up halfway thru, which I often do, and have always kind of hated about myself, the trying was always the best part.


so my list has lofty things like "get married" and "swim with a shark" and stupid chores like "get passport renewed" and "make an appointment with a dermatologist."

But I built a website last night and it's terrible but I figured it out and am going to sleep having added another stupid url to the universe. and it is...

http://karis101project.com/