I had a dream that we were on a beach at sunset. We hadn't spoke in months and we weren't speaking then, just like we aren't now.
We stopped to watch and there were so many clouds in the way and somehow the sky looked too grey for a sunset.
I said to you "it's not really that pretty is it?"
And you said "it's hard to see it as beautiful when you compare it to all the sunsets we shared before."
and i nodded and turned and walked away.
this is the first time i've dreamt of you since the breakup. i think it's because i'm settling into the idea that the door for us is closed and now I don't get to move on, i just have to. you probably felt that the moment it happened. but i think i was waiting for the dust to settle.
i suppose now it's time to stop looking at the male population as an amusing distraction while I get my head together and start thinking of them as a possible future.
that's quite terrifying...
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